Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. - Marilyn

Monday, January 27, 2014

Anything that's everything.

If there's anything that's everything, it's our instincts.

Instincts are everything. When we're being lead by our instincts, it's not so much an intellectual idea, but more so just a visceral and trusting gut feeling. It's when we stop questioning everything and everyone, and angst and fear are not huge issues for us anymore. And if they are, they subside soon than later. And life goes on.

But...if our first thought stems from logic, on the other hand, or intellect, or our pained-past (or) our "fishy" future, or even a hunger for perfection (according to our human definition), or a propensity for self-gain and/or sabotage, then our ideas and beliefs propel more from our heads, LESS from our instincts. Then the migraine kicks in...and then the anxiety. Yada yada.

I felt inspired to share after watching a cool video this morning on instincts vs. thoughts and ideas.


Sunday, January 19, 2014

Make me.


Don't give me. MAKE me. 

Even if you have to break me. Make me what I have to be in order to live this life to the fullest. Break me again if you have to. Just don't give me. Don't give me excuses. Don't give me a reason. Just make me do it. Don't give me potential. Don't give me time. Make me powerful...Right Now. Make me magical in this very moment. Don't give me peace. Make me fight for peace. And make me peaceful. Don't give me hope. Make me Trust, and make me trusting. Make me a warrior in my solitude. Make me take nothing for granted. Make me take nothing from anyone. Make me. Break me if you have to. Just don't give me. Don't give me anything. Instead, make me Everything. Then make me OWN it. That way nothing can take it from me. Please, and thank you.

~Me, making a few small requests this morning amidst a lovely chat with my heart. She's a good friend of mine. (Usually.)

Monday, January 13, 2014

Less is more.

Don't think less of yourself. Just think of yourself...less. 
C.S. Lewis said something like that. It's indispensable, earth shattering advice. I also think it's a prescription for our well being, especially for those who are extremely sensitive like myself. I can be sensitive to a fault - insecurity kicks in and I'm totally defeated. Pause. Rewind. That didn't work. Start over. Not to say that 'sensitivity' is a bad thing. It's a beautiful thing, but being easily affected by everything and/or everyone has its repercussions. Regret is one of them. Anger is another. So, balance and a sense of self and self worth are significant. Confidence is the word. Compassion is the other word, and so is 'Patience'. (Which I need more of) Once you have those things, you can focus on others and think of yourself...less. Step out of your shoes and step into their shoes. Or, don't wear any shoes. Says the yogi. Just breath. Just be. And smile cause you're still alive. And that's good enough, when you really think about it. 


Friday, January 3, 2014


"Dear Human: You’ve got it all wrong. 

You didn’t come here to master unconditional love. That is where you came from and where you’ll return. You came here to learn personal love. Universal love. Messy love. Sweaty love. Crazy love. Broken love. Whole love. Infused with divinity. Lived through the grace of stumbling. Demonstrated through the beauty of… messing up. Often. You didn’t come here to be perfect. You already are. You came here to be gorgeously human. Flawed and fabulous. And then to rise again into remembering. But unconditional love? Stop telling that story. Love, in truth, doesn’t need ANY other adjectives. It doesn’t require modifiers. It doesn’t require the condition of perfection. It only asks that you show up. And do your best. That you stay present and feel fully. That you shine and fly and laugh and cry and hurt and heal and fall and get back up and play and work and live and die as YOU. It’s enough. It’s Plenty.”

~ Courtney A. Walsh

Thank you Courtney. Love love what you say and how you think. Brilliant! Love doesn't require the condition of perfection. Just show up! Just love. Leave all the conditions and un-conditions at the door, 'cause in a room filled with love... anything can happen. ANYTHING. The lights could go off. The lights could stay on. One candle might burn and you could be the only one in there. Alone you are. Where the hell did everyone go??? Hello? The room is quite or the room is loud. Music might play while the whole world surrounds you. Alone you are not. Hello crowd! Now where are the ones I love? Who are all these people? Do they love me? They must. In a room filled with love, anything can happen and anyone can show up. So, just do your best while you're in there. If it hurts...let it hurt and then do your best to let it GO. And when you leave that room once filled with love, find another room...and fill it with love. No matter who's in there. 

Then let it be. Let it flow. Set it free. Let it go. And let love do what it does. Happy NEW YEAR to you. May this new era fill all your rooms and all your spaces, all your thoughts, and all your traces with love, peace, fortune, health and forgiveness.** 

It's January 3rd, day three of the new calendar dawn. I was thinking about something today, actually I was thinking about multiple things today - hundreds of things to be exact. I was thinking. Not only do I, too, believe that love is plenty, as worded above beautifully by Courtney Walsh, I also believe that love resolves everything - our inner conflicts, our impudence. Our anger if you will. Call me a hippy, or call me redundant. I know it's been said before, but it can't be said enough! Love resolves EVERYTHING! But there's caveat. Love resolves everything, but only on the inside. Sadly, the L-word (Love, not the drama series) has yet to resolve everything on the outside. Thus, mother earth is weeping and so are a lot of broken, sick and lonely people out there. But, there's hope! When we know how insanely powerful we are, when we realize our innate capacity to create and destroy, then there's hope.

You see....hope is often a child. She relies on us completely, as though we're all a mother...even if we're not. Hope takes us by the hand and smiles as she glances up, for she has made us taller - more insightful, more self-aware. We look down...and we see the sky. 

We look down and see a sky of hope.  

And while nestled in the blue, we see the white and bright light as we realize our power to CREATE. And then we fully understand our power to DESTROY. And we shy away from neither. Rather, we embrace these two innate and essential natures because they're ours...for the taking. These are our internal ingredients for our life. Create or Destroy? That is the question. And those are our options.

Love is tucked somewhere in between.

We can create opportunities and we can create the life we REALLY want for ourself. Or, we can create chaos and a life we don't want. And when we do, we can destroy it. We can destroy what destroys us...even if we created it. 

Thus, we blame no one for our chaos, we're responsible for our actions, and we're in control of our lives. 

Mix that with love, and you've got plenty.

Love, Light, Peace and Newness to you.
~Anne-Marie Pauley