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Try again no matter how many times you've failed, this I was told. Failure pushes us closer to our soul.

"Doubt not; when you want to attain any righteous goal, cast away the thought of failure. You possess the creative power of Spirit. This Infinite Intelligence will guide you and solve every problem. The sunshine of divine prosperity has just burst through the dark sky of your limitations."

-Paramahansa Yogananda

The other day I heard a man say; "find what it is that will help you change your destiny."

Find that "thing". I think when we find that thing, whether it be a dream, a passion, a love, or a longing faith, then we'll know our purpose in this estranged world, and we'll know our value and self worth in each others lives. I think this is what the journey of life is all about--knowing how to change our destiny by knowing what it is we must do for one another. This is how we'll learn to truly help ourselves, by having compassion for each other. I think it's team work, without a doubt. It can't possibly be all about me and where I'm headed, there's just no way.

I wrote a song called "Change" about a year ago. I was going through a lot of change at the time. My life was upside down actually. Fortunately, it all changed for the better, as I knew it would. I knew my life would change and so it did. I was on the edge of my own hell, my heart was breaking, and I had only a dream feeding me any hope at all. It was all the hope I needed, and so I believed in change. When we believe in anything, anything is possible.

I think "change" is always arising in our lives, offering each one of us the help and the opportunity to improve our self and our life, we just don't stop for a second to notice it. We're in a hurry to get what we want and need, moving and going nowhere. I heard a woman say this; "it's like we live our lives in a rocking chair, we're always moving, but where are we going?"

We miss the opportunities to try again all too often, and we miss so much because of it.

I feel we all must change. That's the process of life. However long that takes us each, I don't know. I wonder sometimes. Sometimes I feel I've lost all hope in some people whom I love. But, as the clock ticks, ever-so-slowly at times, my hope is regained. It takes me time, it takes us all time to get the mind back to the heart, but it comes back, and with one foot in front of the other, life carries on. Through the act of unconditional love and divine patience, hope returns to us and wisdom prevails from within us and life changes...for the better.

At this point, I realize I can only change myself. Maybe this is wisdom. Maybe it's just  common sense. It doesn't always seem like common sense. But I know I have to change, and not over night, one day at a time. Patience is virtue. When I can change, I can change destiny. So the wise man says.


"There are blessings falling down from the sky
They're in disguise 
After I die again
I try again
And I realize
You've got to change."

-AM "Change"

And I've got to change... destiny.

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